September 22, 2012

"How are you?"

"I'm okay," is usually my answer to this question. I'm not great, but things could be way, way worse.

It's amazing how no one has forgotten that just a month ago we miscarried our little baby. I just continued to be blown away by the support we are receiving--I just got two cards in the mail this week from friends who just wanted to tell us they are praying.

In my previous posts, I was able to speak of a lot of hope that we have. And we still do. But I want everyone to know that it's not always that easy. In fact, nothing about this has been easy. I still get angry and upset. Even to the point of displacing that anger into other things. Little things. Big things. I'm quite lovely to be around. But the hope we have, keeps me going.

I commented to Dan today that we would have been into the second trimester now. So crazy to think about. But despite it all, God has given us a peace that surpasses all understanding. I don't know how else to explain it. Even through the angry moments, the tears, the frustration--there is peace and calm in the storm.

It's been a hard few months--heck it's been a hard year for us, but I'm so thankful for the way it has really bonded Dan and I as a couple, and how it has grown and nurtured friendships.

I'm getting back into some good habits and routines and am feeling pretty much 100% physically. I had really been missing yoga--or really any kind of exercise! I was swimming almost every day of the pregnancy but just crazy fell off the wagon and have been feeling so yucky and stagnant. But we're back at it. Back to the gym, back to the Chiropractor, back to our game nights...back to life.

We love you all, and thank you from the bottom of our hearts for caring for us so deeply!


  1. Sweet Emily. I have been and will continue to pray for complete healing for you. I too know this pain. I am blessed to be on the other side of it now. I can praise God for the way he worked even though I still don't understand. My prayer is that you will look back in a few short years and remember this time as a hard time but an integral part of your family story.

    1. Beth! Thank you. Somehow I missed this until right now, but I really enjoyed reading it and reflecting on your encouragement. Love you!